So it's been a while since I've worked on my website, which feels a little strange really as I obsessively tweaked this site every single day in the early months.
Although I have been keeping everyone up to date via the Daily Vlogs on my second channel and on my Facebook, I understand that not everyone has the time to check out my videos every single day and keep up to date with every pocket of information I feed to you through 10 minute videos.
So here is a big post with everything to explain why Ive been so run down and busy! So shall we begin?
well first off! My staff quit.
This was kind of a blow to my - already busy - life. I had kind of fallen into a well oiled routine of having a Thursday off, which allowed me to read, review and edit my comic video on wednesday & Thursday, which then also allowed me to film and edit my Monday video and any other videos I needed to do. Not to mention make & photo jewellery in the daylight I miss out on every other day and also deep clean the house (which I never find time to do during the week)... so.... its not really a day off, but a necessary part in my life.
It doesn't sound like much, but during January and February, I need to spend every minute of my life working on my shop just so I can keep afloat with rent and bills. Its exhausting but rewarding work, so without this day off I don't have time to deep clean my house, research, film and edit videos, or even make new jewellery for the website.
Sunday used to be just a standard day off. I would naturally still work in the evening but I would at least try to live a normal, semi stress free day whilst the sun was up. Without this day off to try and recharge my batteries I have found my life becoming so overwhelmingly hectic and messy. My house is untidy, my videos are suffering, my jewellery is non existent and I've forgotten what most of my friends look like. My shop is looking better than ever but at the end of the day, its always been my priority and working 7 days a week will usually make anything look its best I suppose.
However all is not lost because I finally hired a new guy!
So after about a week of freaking out, I finally found a new guy. He's a keen gamer and shows the right type of personality any boss wants to see in their staff. The only problem is, I need to train new staff, so I'm still working 7 days a week at the moment but there is light at the end of the tunnel at least!
I've lost some friends because of my busy life lately
Recently due to a lot of assumptions, busy schedules and break down in sanity and communication, I've lost some friends the past month. It really hit me hard if I am being honest. The people I truly loved and admired just cut me out of their life without talking to me first. I cried for about 2 days over it, then eventually realised, that they couldn't have been who I thought they were, because they would have spoken to me first. Don't get me wrong, it's not all their fault but it certainly didn't need to end this way. It never gets easier losing people from your life, in fact I think it actually gets harder as you get older. I guess I just have to try even harder with the people still remaining. Thank you if you are one of them <3
I started filming 'Lets Plays'
My friend Andrew Robinson (Fangle Spangle) really helped lately in more ways than they will ever know. People seemed to be dropping out of my life lately and I started to worry if it was all my fault, maybe I wasn't a nice person, maybe I was in fact doing something wrong. Obviously, it's not all their fault we're no longer friends but I started to worry it was 100% me who was to blame.
Friends like Andrew and Anthony have recently shown me it can't be, because Anthony helped me get hold of a capture card as he constantly tries to support my channel and me in general. Andrew has also been helping me in the shop for the past 3 weeks by travelling all the way from Bolton to help me process all the stock I've been struggling to get through on my own. So many positives have come from this though, he makes me want to cry with how much I value his friendship, he's really helped my shop look amazing again but we've also made the most of it by having sleepovers on Wednesday nights and playing video games and filming them with the capture card!
These lets plays have been SO fun to film and have also been a massive life saver for me because I haven't had time to film Monday videos at all. so, PHEW!
My intention with the games is to use the footage for my stores website, to help show what the gameplay is like for that game, but also to help the website promote my youtube channel. I would really like to get enough followers to enjoy the videos so it eventually warrants its own gaming channel as I don't want to mess up my channel too much with loads of gaming footage.
Feeling positive about the future
So yeah, I just kind of wanted to explain in detail where I am at these days, I have been borderline depressed, run down, feeling lonely, let down and my skin has constantly been breaking out under stress but I am finally seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and the pay off for all the hard work my friends and I have been putting into my channel and my store (so thank you!)
March is going to be a new month and a fresh start, hopefully my staff member will be fully trained to allow my days off to return soon. Also, I am doing my first craft fair of the year on the 5th March in Manchester so I am looking forward to that. MCM Liverpool is on the 12th & 13th which I simply can not wait for and then, If I wasn't exhausted enough, on the 15th March I fly to Amsterdam with my mum for a couple of days. It will be the first time I have been abroad in 5 years and I can not wait!
so in conclusion
I have had some really s%*t things happen to me this month which turned my life a little upside down but some great things came from that too. But this blog isn't a pity party, it was just to try and explain to you guys why my channel hasn't been up to scratch lately! Hopefully it will get back on track in the following weeks. Thank you all for sticking around through all of this. You have no idea how much I notice it and appreciate it <3 Thank you so much <3
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